February 2012
3 posts
January 2012
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December 2011
1 post
November 2011
14 posts
November 28th 2011
It’s been one week, one day. Nothing about this feels real.
I still just think she’s just at the hospital, and we should be visiting her later. Our family had a private viewing the day before the funeral, and even then looking at her, she looked so peaceful… She looked asleep. I waited and I waited for her to open her eyes.
No-one thought to give me a moment...
hopesprings asked: Tia, I am so very sorry for your loss. You are a strong and beautiful young lady and I am sure that your mom was very proud of you. In future days, as life's changes are upon you and you whisper to the wind, "Mom I wish you could be here to see this" (because you will) listen carefully, and I you will hear the answer "I am" Many times this answer will bring tears of...
sacrificehandsforthesakeofheart asked: You're the strongest person I know Tia, I'm always free to talk like everyone else. <333
Amidst petals and pollen.
lithely:
Foreword: This was written for a darling friend who, at nineteen years of age, lost a parent over the weekend. A friend who I don’t have the pleasure of spending time with as often as I’d like to, but who’s managed to touch me with her strength and her writing. A friend who’s caressed my core, stirred me. A friend who I’ve laughed with and cried for. A friend who’s taught me to...
incensesoakedsoul asked: Tia, I just want you to know that I'm sorry, and I love you. If you ever need to vent, I'm here for you. You're always in my thoughts, and I hope you're doing alright. ♥
kyrajade asked: Hey sweet heart. I don't know how to really approach this subject. I know we don't know each other too well, but you've been in my thoughts all day. I want you to know that if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm always here. I know there's not a lot I can say, but you've amazed us all, you're incredibly strong xox
November 19th 2011
Any day after yesterday should be considered a gift. She was given three days, todays the forth. I laughed today, I cried more though. She hasn’t spoke a clear word in days, she hasn’t smiled either.
She’s still beautiful.
November 20th 2011
I woke up today, the first day of the rest of my life without my mother. At 3:45am this morning she passed in her...
November 17th 2011
Today, all things aside, it was better. Last night we made a plan. Harry Potter movie night. My go-to guy. Good ol’ Harry. My boyfriend woke up and trekked to the city. My brother and I on the hunt for popcorn buckets and a popcorn machine. I laughed a lot more.
November 18th 2011
Today I woke up and cried. I woke up and thought it was all a dream. It wasn’t...
November 15th 2011
I woke up today, and the first thing I did was get on my bike on the hunt for some flowers. It was a shame though, no-where close enough had roses at this time of morning. I still got her flowers though.
Today was worse though, she seemed a lot less… there? I don’t even know how to describe it. I sat with her though. Held her hand… it was the best I could do...
Anonymous asked: I don't know you, yet by some mysterious turn of events I stumbled across your blog page. By the time I had gotten to the song 'May Angels Lead You In' I was in tears. So, I feel a desperate urge to ask, what's wrong? I would understand that you may be uncomfortable answering this, and by all means, don't if that is the case.
factvsfiction asked: You're such an incredibly amazing person Tia. Honestly, I think you've managed to help so many people through their own personal journeys to a point where you have already saved more people than you could ever imagine. You're such a kind soul, much love <3
incensesoakedsoul asked: Tia, I love you. I hope you're doing okay. Just know that you're always in my thoughts. ♥
worthlesspropaganda asked: Not a moment of the day goes past without my father in my head and heart. The quote 'Live every moment of the day as if it is your last' could not apply more to this situation. I wish your mother all the best of luck and I honestly hope you feel better, even if it's for a second. Also, do not feel an obligation to reply to this. All the best - Natalija.
November 11th 2011
Today was the day I waited for. This was the day I never wanted to come. “The doctors have given her 2, to 3 months… but being realistic, it’s more like 4, to 6 weeks.” I was told over the phone, the worst of places, the worst timing. I was on my way to get dressed for a wedding. A day of photo’s, smiles and pretending everything would be okay. But it wasn’t. Speeches came, they...
October 2011
7 posts
Tattoo time.
I, like many, tend to focus on my hands when I am sad. I fiddle with my fingers; I look down into my open palms. I seem to look at them, as if there is something they can tell me. Therefore, they will be tattooed with my own personal messages to brighten my day when I am down.
Inside Left Hand. Across the inside of my fingers, in capital letters will be the word Hope. I feel as though, this is a...
For a very long time, I just tried to run from everything. I tried to run from my past, and my future – but it’s a lot easier said than done, especially when, both your past and your future look you in the face on a daily basis.
I never meant for it to be like this, all this mess I have caused. In no way did I mean to take everything from you. And it really hurt to be accused of that. I am aware...
roaringfox asked: I know i've told you before, but just in case you need reminding, if you need to talk. I'm so glad to hear that the cancer is lessening with your mother.
September 2011
5 posts
I’ve only ever had one job in life, that I loved...
And a week ago, I lost this job. For the first three hours straight, I cried.
It’s a week later now, and tomorrow is the first day of my last week. If you had of asked me a week ago, I would have told you I was scared, I would have replied “I have bills to pay”. Now, with a completely different mindset, I’ll reply “Hey, life goes on, there are better things coming.” I’m not lost, I’m just moving...
I don’t miss you, because I don’t know who you are...
It’s funny that life has become a popularity contest for you, asking people not to be my friend because you don’t deem my friendship good enough.
A word of the wise, for your immature little self. I would never, and I repeat never, ask any of our mutual friends to ‘choose’ between us. One, because I am not that low; my friends have the right to be friends with whomever they please, even if I...
Karma’s a bitch; I guess I got what I deserved...
When does the bad cross, over to the luck of life? How bad does someone have to be, for Karma to come back and bite them in the arse?
August 2011
12 posts
incensesoakedsoul asked: I love you.
I hope you're doing okay. I know everything is hard. Everything gets better, though. Go out. Try new things. Enjoy little things. It helps.
I hope you're doing okay. I know everything is hard. Everything gets better, though. Go out. Try new things. Enjoy little things. It helps.
a-sile asked: you. are. wonderful.
July 2011
9 posts
“…No, I just don’t have stripper fashion” Well, honey, I would much rather look like a whore, than be one. Maybe bite your tounge next time.