Anonymous asked: I don't know you, yet by some mysterious turn of events I stumbled across your blog page. By the time I had gotten to the song 'May Angels Lead You In' I was in tears. So, I feel a desperate urge to ask, what's wrong? I would understand that you may be uncomfortable answering this, and by all means, don't if that is the case.

You can ask ‘What’s wrong?’ all you like, but it’s such a broad question. In all honesty, I rarely go on this tumblr anymore, because I feel like all my writing is far to depressing, and it only gets me down. So really, I have no idea how long this has been here for, maybe hours, days or weeks. Either way, I’ll explain my situation.

Four years ago last week was the first time my mum was diagnosed with cancer. Through that time, she got better, I fell in and out of love, and then in love again. Really, my love life no longer brings any sorrow into my life. But you see, at the end of last year my mum was diagnosed with cancer again. We knew she wouldn’t make it from the start. We had hope though, we tried everything. The fact that my family is thousands of dollars in debit now, proves that.

And then the worst happened. On Friday my mum was given 3 months to live. To be realistic though, we aren’t even getting our hopes up for her to be here on christmas day. People have started to come and say their goodbyes, and we’ve started on the funeral plans.

All said and done, she’s my best friend. The day I found out , I attended a wedding, and also one the following day. Then saturday night, my friends talked about pregnancy, and how they will have the help of their mothers. Those two things where always the hardest things for me to face. My mum wont see me get married, nor will she be there to teach me how to hold my child properly. I have the rest of my life to live, with out her. 

But for now, I tell her I love her every chance I get. That’s the best I can do.